If a tree falls in the forest and nobody is there to hear it,

Because I'm selfish.

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 22:23:52 GMT

I don't know why I get so down when I've got everything I ever wanted.

My birthday is in 2 days.

Tue, 08 Jan 2008 19:46:12 GMT

I haven't updated in ages. I'm not much of a LJ user anymore.
My first semester of college is over, and I totally kicked its ass.

Principles of Biology- B+
Western Civilization I- A
Research Essentials- A
Statistics I- A
Spanish I- A

I just discovered I have a 3.9 GPA and I'm on the deans list.

Still not satisfied...
Fuck Biology, I should have gotten an A.

But the truth is I really just don't/never did care!

Tue, 16 Oct 2007 06:28:43 GMT

Lol, you must think I'm stupid.

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 18:51:19 GMT

You know what mom? Fuck you. I hope one day there comes a time where something happens and you need me. Because when that time comes, I'll just turn away.

Karma is a bitch.
So am I.

You'll get what you deserve.

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 17:22:16 GMT

All I do is cry. I'm falling back down...

Sat, 15 Sep 2007 04:38:25 GMT

I'm just so disappointed with and by everyone.
Its almost unbearable...

Mon, 10 Sep 2007 18:03:14 GMT

I passed my road test (finally)!

Sat, 08 Sep 2007 06:09:08 GMT

I need all the luck I can get.
Pray for me on Sunday/Monday.

SIX MONTHS<3

Wed, 29 Aug 2007 06:33:14 GMT

I'M GOING TO SEE GLASSJAW IN NEW JERSEY ON NOVEMBER FOURTH, BECAUSE I HAVE THE BEST BOYFRIEND EVER.

I am so so so excited, even though everything in my life is going terribly wrong right now.

Sat, 25 Aug 2007 21:12:48 GMT

First real disappointment from you in six months.
You even made me cry...

Shame on you, or shame on me? I don't know who's more to blame, you for disappointing me, or me for caring enough to let you do so...

Thu, 23 Aug 2007 23:05:26 GMT

For my own personal reference, day one= 7pm 23 Aug 2007.

My boy's got a heart of gold.

Tue, 21 Aug 2007 20:09:59 GMT

Edward Britch, you are the most beautiful person ever.

Tue, 21 Aug 2007 17:38:12 GMT

When (if it ever happens) I get my license, I'm falling off the face of the earth.
I need to re-arrange my life and who is in it.

I can't wait for my independence.

You're lucky I don't care.

Mon, 06 Aug 2007 04:58:50 GMT

When you do things like this, it makes me feel like I am nothing.
So much for being completely in love...

PS. Starting tomorrow I am determined to lose weight. I've watched my once tiny and fit frame swell and grow into this ugly and disgusting monster. I can't stand looking at myself anymore. Time to take action.

Wed, 01 Aug 2007 07:11:28 GMT

So caught up in this whirlpool called life.

Messin with your head again, a dose of your own medicine.

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 17:49:08 GMT

I'm a horrible person, but whatever things happen. I wish I were sober enough last night to remember things today. Theres a lot of things I need to clear up with myself.

And fuck you, selfish bitch.

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 06:10:22 GMT

Dear eyes, stop wondering. You're selfish!

But my God is she cute... and funny... and her eyes...

I like my boyfriend and he makes me happy I like my boyfriend and he makes me happy I like my boyfriend and he makes me happy I like my boyfriend and he makes me happy I like my boyfriend and he makes me happy I like my boyfriend and he makes me happy I like my boyfriend and he makes me happy!!

No but in all honesty, I love Ed and he does make me happier than I've ever been with anyone else.
I just can't stop crushing!!

Mon, 16 Jul 2007 01:00:09 GMT

Maybe it was easier when you were out of my life. That way I didn't have to think about you, wonder what you were doing, and why you hadn't called even though you had said you would. That way the stupid little nothings wouldn't hurt so much.

Get out of my head.
Get out of my heart.

You've already gotten me out of (both of) yours.

Fri, 13 Jul 2007 04:20:50 GMT

I want to get back into old, bad BAD habits. I'm fighting my hardest not to because I know that I can't. I promised myself that I would get better. I thought I had but I know that I'm not cured. I dream about that cold sharp edge. I need it but I can't have it.

I'll get through this on my own.
Always on my own.

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 18:31:04 GMT

My Grandmother had a stroke two nights ago. The entire left side of her body is permanently paralyzed. I find this out right when I arrive at the Independence Day party at my cousins with Ed, when I see my aunt in hysterics. I hate how no one can call me when these things happen and let me know. She's my grandmother. Ed took me to see her and it wasn't good at all. We had to wear gowns and gloves before entering the room because she had an infection once before. She looks horrible. When I saw her paralyzed arm lying there lifeless, I lost it and hard as I had tried to keep the tears in, they came out. Now, I'm more nervous than ever because my mom told me that this is exactly what happened to my Grandma may last April when she died. The stroke and half-body paralyzed scheme. I knew it had sounded familiar, but just thought that it happened last time Nononna was in the hospital and she recovered. No, its what killed my other Grandma.

I can't go through this again.
Please be strong Nono.

Sun, 01 Jul 2007 17:21:31 GMT

For the first time in my life I'm finding that I'm not afraid to fall for someone. For the first time I don't have to be afraid that they don't feel the same, I finally have someone whom both loves me and expresses it. Its nice not to have to hold back. I'm not completely in love, I'm not stupid, but I am getting a taste of it and it feels great. Maybe one day I'll allow myself to let go and fall completely. I love having someone to care about and have those feelings reciprocated, even multiplied. He's unbelievably good to me, and good FOR me. I don't want to mess this up... I won't.

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 23:28:28 GMT

Oh life. You make me laugh.

In a good way, usually.

Sun, 03 Jun 2007 04:27:36 GMT

Silently screaming inside of my body; at my body, my mind, and my heart.

Don't make a sound.

Mon, 28 May 2007 17:17:23 GMT

I want my bones back.

Sun, 20 May 2007 06:43:21 GMT

Your promises mean as much now as they did then.
What was I even thinking?

On another note, I love my boo <3