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| Because I'm selfish. |
[Tuesday
4 March 2008
5:22pm] |
I don't know why I get so down when I've got everything I ever wanted.
My birthday is in 2 days.
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[Tuesday
8 January 2008
2:41pm] |
I haven't updated in ages. I'm not much of a LJ user anymore.
My first semester of college is over, and I totally kicked its ass.
Principles of Biology- B+
Western Civilization I- A
Research Essentials- A
Statistics I- A
Spanish I- A
I just discovered I have a 3.9 GPA and I'm on the deans list.
Still not satisfied...
Fuck Biology, I should have gotten an A.
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[Tuesday
9 October 2007
2:50pm] |
You know what mom? Fuck you. I hope one day there comes a time where something happens and you need me. Because when that time comes, I'll just turn away.
Karma is a bitch.
So am I.
You'll get what you deserve.
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[Tuesday
9 October 2007
1:21pm] |
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All I do is cry. I'm falling back down...
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[Saturday
15 September 2007
12:37am] |
I'm just so disappointed with and by everyone.
Its almost unbearable...
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[Monday
10 September 2007
2:02pm] |
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AFI |
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I passed my road test (finally)!
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[Saturday
8 September 2007
2:08am] |
I need all the luck I can get.
Pray for me on Sunday/Monday.
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| SIX MONTHS<3 |
[Wednesday
29 August 2007
2:32am] |
I'M GOING TO SEE GLASSJAW IN NEW JERSEY ON NOVEMBER FOURTH, BECAUSE I HAVE THE BEST BOYFRIEND EVER.
I am so so so excited, even though everything in my life is going terribly wrong right now.
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[Saturday
25 August 2007
2:10pm] |
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First real disappointment from you in six months.
You even made me cry...
Shame on you, or shame on me? I don't know who's more to blame, you for disappointing me, or me for caring enough to let you do so...
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[Thursday
23 August 2007
7:04pm] |
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For my own personal reference, day one= 7pm 23 Aug 2007.
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[Tuesday
21 August 2007
1:35pm] |
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Thrice | Silhouette |
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When (if it ever happens) I get my license, I'm falling off the face of the earth.
I need to re-arrange my life and who is in it.
I can't wait for my independence.
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| You're lucky I don't care. |
[Monday
6 August 2007
12:57am] |
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When you do things like this, it makes me feel like I am nothing.
So much for being completely in love...
PS. Starting tomorrow I am determined to lose weight. I've watched my once tiny and fit frame swell and grow into this ugly and disgusting monster. I can't stand looking at myself anymore. Time to take action.
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[Wednesday
1 August 2007
3:10am] |
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So caught up in this whirlpool called life.
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| Messin with your head again, a dose of your own medicine. |
[Saturday
21 July 2007
1:47pm] |
I'm a horrible person, but whatever things happen. I wish I were sober enough last night to remember things today. Theres a lot of things I need to clear up with myself.
And fuck you, selfish bitch.
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[Wednesday
18 July 2007
2:06am] |
Dear eyes, stop wondering. You're selfish!
But my God is she cute... and funny... and her eyes...
I like my boyfriend and he makes me happy I like my boyfriend and he makes me happy I like my boyfriend and he makes me happy I like my boyfriend and he makes me happy I like my boyfriend and he makes me happy I like my boyfriend and he makes me happy I like my boyfriend and he makes me happy!!
No but in all honesty, I love Ed and he does make me happier than I've ever been with anyone else.
I just can't stop crushing!!
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[Sunday
15 July 2007
8:57pm] |
Maybe it was easier when you were out of my life. That way I didn't have to think about you, wonder what you were doing, and why you hadn't called even though you had said you would. That way the stupid little nothings wouldn't hurt so much.
Get out of my head.
Get out of my heart.
You've already gotten me out of (both of) yours.
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[Friday
13 July 2007
12:19am] |
I want to get back into old, bad BAD habits. I'm fighting my hardest not to because I know that I can't. I promised myself that I would get better. I thought I had but I know that I'm not cured. I dream about that cold sharp edge. I need it but I can't have it.
I'll get through this on my own.
Always on my own.
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[Thursday
5 July 2007
2:18pm] |
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My Grandmother had a stroke two nights ago. The entire left side of her body is permanently paralyzed. I find this out right when I arrive at the Independence Day party at my cousins with Ed, when I see my aunt in hysterics. I hate how no one can call me when these things happen and let me know. She's my grandmother. Ed took me to see her and it wasn't good at all. We had to wear gowns and gloves before entering the room because she had an infection once before. She looks horrible. When I saw her paralyzed arm lying there lifeless, I lost it and hard as I had tried to keep the tears in, they came out. Now, I'm more nervous than ever because my mom told me that this is exactly what happened to my Grandma may last April when she died. The stroke and half-body paralyzed scheme. I knew it had sounded familiar, but just thought that it happened last time Nononna was in the hospital and she recovered. No, its what killed my other Grandma.
I can't go through this again.
Please be strong Nono.
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